What living water looks like today

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Because of my ups and downs, I often want to quit things. I have trouble staying the course. I wonder if that is why I've been called to have 5 kids and homeschool them as my 'job'. I can't quit. I am permanently a mom and they are permanently my kids.

Today, I am feeling overwhelmed and I am feeling the need to quit. Or, I should rephrase that. There is a part of me that is feeling overwhelmed and wants to quit. There is a part of me that feels completely unqualified and incompetent. 

I feel another voice come up and says "By whose standards are you failing?? You don't need to comply with the government standards. I am God and I say that you are doing very well. More than very well. You are doing exceedingly well and you are exactly where I want you to be. Don't use worldly standards to measure your success. You are not part of the world. You are mine. You are of the Kingdom of Heaven. We operate by different rules. You can tell the sad part of you that everything is going to be ok. You have the God of the universe on your side. I am in front, beside and behind you in everything you do."

** pause **

Ok that was WEIRD! I've never had that happen before. God came and addressed my sad side. How cool is that?! 

I was meditating on the woman at the well and the living water that Jesus was offering her. And I was asking God in my heart .... what is living water? how can I get some? what does it do?? Because I feel like I am drowning in my failures and I need help.

I don't know if this will always be the case, but this morning, for me, living water is my connection with God. It's being able to hear from him and to know that he is with me. That I cannot fail because God is holding me. He does miracles all around me. And he doesn't measure things by the world's standards.

Thank you God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for speaking to me!!! Thank you for giving attention to my sad side. Can you please speak to me more often? It really is amazing to hear from you. Amen.




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